This is something that has been on my mind for quite some time. In the past few months, I’ve realized that I’ve made mistakes and there are certain flaws of my own that are oftentimes more evident than others. I will say that I may not always make the right decisions, I may be irrational, I may not be my best self 100% of the time. Here’s the thing though, are we all ever going to be perfect? The answer to that question is no. And that’s okay – what matters is being aware of our flaws/mistakes and learning how to better ourselves.
Here’s some context to put things into perspective. I am a natural-born leader in the way that I like to take charge of situations a lot. This is something that I’ve always done, and I will continue to do this because of who I am. I know at times I may come off bossy, or as if I am micromanaging things – I can recognize that very clearly. In essence though, I really just like planning and executing – it is of my nature (like I actually get extremely excited). But, I do apologize to any of my friends and family if I come off a certain type of way. Moving forward, I’ll try my best to take a step back and reflect before I start delegating in a negative manner.
I can go on and on and on about the rest of my imperfections but you see, I do not believe in dwelling in the negatives; I do not believe in constantly putting myself down. However, I do believe in being self-aware, which in turn can hopefully make me be better little by little. Will I make mistakes still? Always. Can I do this by myself? Pft, no. I am constantly asking God to forgive me of my sins, I am constantly asking God to help me be better than I was the day before.
It is by the grace and mercy of God that I know I will always be loved no matter what – I will always be loved because I was made in the image of love. God is love, and He knows the in’s and the out’s of my soul – when He created me, He already knew the mistakes I would make, He already knew the strengths and weaknesses that I would have. God made me this way for a reason. He made each and every one of us unique in His eyes.
Though He is a forgiving God, and He will always love us no matter what, personally, I don’t believe in taking advantage of this said forgiveness and love. I believe in asking God for help to learn from these mistakes so that we can learn to move on with our lives.